Well it has been nearly 18 months since I last posted and I would not blame anybody if they had decided to move on. It was not the fact that I had not posted anything for a long time that brought me back to here, no it was the fact that I decided I needed to change. That what this blog started out as, the sub heading of this blog is “ramblings of an overweight old fart trying to get fit!” Well after starting ok all those years ago and making steady head way, I then started struggling and going backwards to the point I am at now today. As a consequence of this I have picked up Type2 Diabetes on the way which has added a large complication to my life, all this is my fault nobodies else’s.
But consider this, if I smoked cigarettes I would be accused of being addicted to smoking, if I drank to much (alcohol) I would be called an alcoholic, if I started taking illegal drugs, I would be a drug addict but because I eat to much food and don’t exercise I am a fattie. Yep hands up here, no argument, I eat to much, I eat the wrong food, I do not exercise at all. I know what I should be doing, I know what the consequence are if I don’t, so why do I continue on down this same path that is slowly killing me? Why is being overweight not considered an addiction?
There is no point continuing that argument as it will not help me do what I need to do which is loose weight. It is my problem and I am the only one who can do anything about it. So this is what I am going to do about it. I waited until the festive season was gone and I had had my birthday (which is early January) now I am setting of on a journey (or maybe restarting as I did start this journey many years ago), but rather than charging at it like a bull seeing a red flag, I am taking it at a slow walking pace, I am getting back to eating the right food and the right amounts, no additional extras (unless it is a party event, birthday etc.), I am going to start weighting myself on a weekly basis this is something I have rarely done myself, when I was at Slimming World it was weekly. I can’t remember the last time I was weighted, I think it was at the doctors sometime last year and it was not good news then and since then I have put more weight on. I need to dig the scales out and make sure they are still working, then starting using them on a weekly basis.
While I don’t want to call them promises (but I can’t think of another word at the moment), the only ‘promises’ I have made for now are as follows:
Eat the correct food and the correct amounts
Weight myself weekly
Eating the correct food and correct amount should help lower my weight and help keep my diabetes in check. Weighing myself will help keep me on track by knowing exactly where I am.
I won’t be getting back on my bike until a little later in the year when I have lost weight, how much……I don’t know, it will be when I feel ready to do so.
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Ever notice that when you are down, life tries to make it hard to get back up again? That is exactly how I feel. We were just getting back on an even keel, the wife is working and enjoying her job and even better her job likes her. I had got the lounge finally decorated, the new carpet had been laid, a new fish tank had been purchased (not yet setup), a new book shelf is on order. Sure there is still lots to do but at least we could see a path and we could plan our route along that path, but then the father in-law was admitted to hospital. Don’t get me wrong it is not his fault, he is 85 and has always been active. He has been ill for a few weeks but when the hospital phone you at 9-30 on a Friday night and tell you they are concerned about a blood test you did the day before and they are sending a doctor out to you now, you know it is not going to be good. The doctor arrived and agreed to admit him to hospital, 1:30am the ambulance arrived to take him to hospital, I eventually got to bed at 4am having taken the family to the hospital and then back to their relevant homes. Nine day later we are still visiting him in hospital, he has good days and he has bad days but he is getting the attention and treatment he needs.
On the weight\slimming front, well I don’t know as I have not been for the last couple of weeks (due to hospital visit commitments). Last time I went to weigh-in I was totally dishearten, another gain, to make matters worse I have had to go back on the medication for my knee (I finished the course the same weekend as the Tazz ride, previous post), so I have to do something, ignoring and doing nothing is not an option but what I am not sure what.
I am still suffering from a lack of enthuiasism at the moment when it comes to going for a ride. It seems as though if I have a planned ride, like the Tazz ride or the ride I did at Swinley Forest with a mate I am up for this and ready to go. I want to ride, a Saturday or Sunday morning ride and I am struggling to get up and go. But if I do make it on a Saturday or Sunday ride, I enjoy the ride, it is not that I don’t enjoy the ride be it local or somewhere new I do, I just cant find my “get up and go”. I managed it this morning but I could of so easily turned over and gone back to sleep. I am intending to go out again tomorrow morning but I have to clear that hurdle of getting out of bed first.
I did mange an evening ride a week or so ago, went out with the intention of practising my hill climbing, there is a long drag over the local heath which I was intending to try to clear. Well not content with clearing it once, I was so shocked I went round the heath a and up the long drag and cleared it a second time, went home feeling very happy with myself even if two lycra clad whippets shot up the hill past me faster than I ride on the flat!!
This morning ride was a beach loop, it is only a short ride but has a mix of uphill climbs and downhill bit as well and a bit of road riding (to join all the bits up). I got up and left in sunshine, by the time I got to the beach it was dull and overcast with dark clouds looming, by the time I got home it was sunny again. When I got to the beach there seemed to be some form of triathlon going on, lots of people walking a round in wet suits with number on, I left them to it.
The picture was taken from near Bournemouth Pier (sorry about the quality, when I got home I found the lense on the phone was filthy). The hills in the distance are the Purbeck Hills, the small white blob is the Barfleur cross channel ferry heading for France. My knee held up for the ride, unfortunately by the time I was a couple of roads from home I was starting to get the tell tell feeling in my right calf of impending cramp, this is despite drinking water and an electrolyte drink during the ride.
Next weekend I am off on my travels, 12 month ago I did the same trip and got the phone call Saturday morning telling me water was coming through our bedroom ceiling, so had to return all the way home from Preston. Hopefully we wont have any problems this year.
Finally I will end with something a little less main stream
New year is normally a time for forgetting the past and making a fresh start, unfortunately in my case I think somebody forgot to tell life that we were starting over for the new year. For the last two weeks I have been laid up with one of those cold\virus things doing the rounds. I blame my son has he brought it home from school and spent a week off school. Then it was my turn and spent 4 days laid low with the bug, apart from the sore throat, headache, felling hot and cold, this bug came with the added bonus of dizzy spells when you stood up or moved around. Having spent 5 days at home I was getting cabin fever so as the wife wanted to do some shopping I felt a trip to Sainsbury’s would be a good idea to get some fresh air. So we drove to Sainsbury’s, by the time I had walked from the car park to the entrance I was holding onto the wall to keep me up, the world was spinning, it was like being drunk without the drinking, not nice. Fortunately I am over the worst of it, still a slight sore throat but at least the spinning has stopped
Having the cold\virus meant I have not done any riding for two week and we have not started the decorating of the lounge yet which is now two weeks behind schedule. Apparently the new carpet is now at the shop ready to be delivered and laid, think it might be there for a couple of week more yet.
I have joined up to Slimming World again, I had to delay it a week due to having the cold and virus but attended a meeting this past Tuesday. I will openly admit I was nervous about getting on the scales, it was not as bad as I had expected but it was still not a healthy weight which ever way you look at it. My increased weight has caused inflammation in my left knee, I am now on a course of anti inflammatory pills to calm it down while I get on with losing weight again.
In all this bad news we have had a couple of bits of good news, The other week the wife says we have won a tenner on the lottery, so she goes to collect our winning and got the shock of her life when the girl behind the desk handed her £64, we actually had four numbers on one line. The other good news is that the insurance company has paid out for the fish tank and the cabinet which caused the flood, just need to get the lounge redecorated, carpet laid and then I can think about getting a replacement tank.
I was checking my cycling helmet out the other day and noticed the state of the foam pads in the helmet, they were gross (think 18 months of sweaty dirty head). So I contacted the UK importer and asked if replacements were available. They replied with a part number and stated that I would need to order the replacement from an approved shop. So I contact a local shop and was informed that the parts were currently on back order………………………………………..June 2013!! Funny how I found a new helmet on special offer on the Internet that same day!!
Well a bit of music to end with Lacuna Coil, only found out about these guys a couple of days ago and have not stopped listening to them since.