Some of the more astute reader (do I have any readers??) will have noticed I have been missing this past week, well after the week I have had I could not give a s**t about blogging. I am not going to go into details except to say that I am a passenger at the moment and I don’t like, I am not enjoying it and I sure as hell want to get off it. Unfortunately being the passenger I don’t have any control so I just have to sit there and watch life control me rather than the other way round.
Monday ended with a rather large weight gain, sure as hell I don’t know where it came from, I had had a good week or at least I thought I had. I am not expecting tomorrows weigh in to be any better as I had an attack of the munchies all damm week and easter with its eggs, hot cross bunny and chocolate is sure as hell not helping (I only had 3 hot cross buns and no easters eggs). I am being pulled from pillar to post and back again at home and at work. I can’t see thing changing much before the end of the week and then it is only a 50\50 chance which I don’t control and if it goes against me then I will sink that little bit further.
Because of the week I have had I am losing the enthusiasm to do anything, I had been planning to ride all four day over easter, checking the weather forecast I could ride on Friday and Saturday if I got up early and rode before the rain. Woke up early on both days, looked out the window and said “sod it” and went back to bed, not because it was raining I just could not be bothered to do it. This morning I had to really drag myself out of the bed to go for a ride and what a disaster that was, decided to do my normal Throop loop, although I was expecting to have to make a diversion over the river at Oakdene as I was expecting it to flooded. Unfortunately I never got that far, Going along the river at Northbourne it was quite flooded, so why on earth did I decided to ride through it. It was deep and it was cold, waterproof boots and waterproof socks are no good when the water is half way up your calfs! So I ended up doing a small loop and going home wet and cold.
The lighter nights are here and I wanted to do a couple of short rides during the early evening to push on with my fitness but again I have not had the interest to do it. I don’t like being like this I want to get on and do things, not sitting around moping about thinking about what might have been.
I am supposed to be doing the charity bike ride on the 25th, I had hoped to have clocked a couple of 25 mile runs in by now but nope, still not hit the mark yet. I had planned to start pushing everybody to start sponsoring me but I just have not been bothered, I want to do it but I feel as though I can’t be bothered at the moment.
Well as I said earlier it is weigh in night tomorrow, not expecting any help from that, just hope it does not seal the weeks events.
